Missing the Trees for the Forest

We've all heard that old saying, "He missed the forest for the trees." It's supposed to challenge us to keep big picture in mind, rather than getting so focused on the little things that we miss the grand scheme.

It's become painfully clear to me that if I am a "grand scheme person" in my spiritual life, I am spiritually blind. I can't see the trees for the forest. More importantly, if I'm busy looking at the forest, I can't see the path through the trees.

The wisdom literature in the scriptures present different concepts of wisdom. One of those scriptural concepts of wisdom that I have found meaningful and practical in my day-to-day life is that the wise person knows what is the right thing to do and the right time to do it. "For everything, there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. He has made everything beautiful in its time; also he has put eternity into man's mind, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." (Ecclesiastes 3: 1, 11)

It's always foolish to do the wrong thing. It is possible, also, to do the right thing at the wrong time. This is equally foolish. The wise person is able to understand that there is:

"a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace." (Ecclesiastes 3:2-8)

The wise person is able to find the right thing to do at the right time.

This frees me in a way that I have never experienced freedom. I don't have to worry about the big picture. My vision needs to be on the here and now. After all, that's all God sees.

God is the eternal now. Let that sink in for a moment. God has no future and no past. "He is who is." That's why God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. The difference between God's vision and mine is that for God every moment in history is happening right now. For me, only this moment is happening right now, but that's ok, because all I need to be concerned about is right now.

This may seem sheets to the wind, and a poor plan for future security, but there are certain things that I would like us to consider, like the lilies of the field.

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, `What shall we eat?' or `What shall we drink?' or `What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day." (Matthew 6:25-34)

This sets me free, because I know that all I need to do is what is right for today. I need to seek the kingdom now. By laying the brick in my hand, I make way for the next one to be laid. If all my attention is focused on the next one, however, I'll screw up the one I'm working on now.

I don't have to worry about what is the right thing to do tomorrow. I don't have to worry about what is the right thing to do next year. I don't have to worry about who's going to get elected in 2012. I don't have to worry about if the stock market crashes, and what will happen to my retirement account.

If I am in touch with the Holy Spirit who guides me in my moment to moment decisions, then in 10 years, I will find that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing, with exactly what I need to do it. God, who sees 10 years from now as now, is preparing now for what I cannot see. "...he has put eternity into man's mind, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." (Ecclesiastes 3: 11b)

Here's a great mistake I made in my life. When I was discerning whether or not to become a priest, I had a still, small voice inside of me telling me that I should not get ordained. I spent so much time thinking about the future, and what ministry would be like, and where I would be 10 years, 20 years, 30 years from where I was, that I didn't listen to what that still, small voice was saying to me AT THAT MOMENT. If I had known then what I know now, I would not have asked for ordination. It was not God's will for me. I got so blinded by the forest, that I missed the details of the trees, which have a beauty all their own.

Right now, I am not called to see the forest. That's a vision that I will have someday in heaven. Right now, I'm called to keep my vision squarely on the path that I am walking today.

Practically, this is how it works. What do I do with my money today? I pray about it. That's always first. I ask God what is his will for me to do with my money today. God will guide me to divide it up between tithing, bills, insurance payments, retirement accounts, fun money. He will guide me into the amount given to each. Strangely enough, when I instituted this practice into my financial management, I've always had enough for everything.

I have a dear friend who takes issue with the list of priorities, "God first, something second, something else third." You can fill in the blanks. His issue is, "Why should I go beyond saying, 'God first'?" If God is first, and I am seeking what is his will for me now, God will tell me WHAT should be second and WHEN "fill in the blank" should be second. Because sometimes, "fill in the blank" will be third. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well." (Matthew 6: 33)

I have to monitor myself constantly, because I want to know what the future will be for me and for my children. That's not mine to know. When I'm suffering, I want to know what great purpose this suffering may serve. That's not mine to know either. What is mine is to seek God's will for me now, and to believe "He has made everything beautiful in it's time."

I know that if I'm doing God's will now, He will make it all beautiful IN ITS TIME.